1. Daniel is... well, he is probably working harder than he ever has in his life, to be honest. But it doesn’t really feel like it, because now he actually lets himself relax when he needs to. He has no idea why he hadn’t ever done that before – he so deserved it. He’s a different man now – a better man. He doesn’t think he’ll fall back into his old, self-neglecting ways, but to remind himself how important he is he makes sure to start every day with something sensual. It’s a weird sort of sensual, to be sure, but the fact that Daniel doesn’t get dressed until after his breakfast is enough of a daily reminder. Morning finds him walking through the house, talking quickly to his staff about the business of the day... it’s work, yes, but he’s doing it in a bathrobe and bare feet. Everyone around him is tucked and buttoned and proper, and he gets to feel the warm, plush carpet under his toes.
2. Daniel has a list. It’s a long, long list. It’s titled “Reasons Why Humanity is Thoroughly Screwed Up and Deserves What’s Coming”. People are so, so stupid, and unfortunately they are often stupid while being in close proximity to Daniel. He greatly enjoys adding to that list, and it reminds him of the inevitability of stupidity, and thus the pointlessness of getting as worked up about it as he does.
3. Every once in a while, Daniel hears someone say “indeed”. It usually gives him a bit of a weird, twisting feeling in his gut. Those evenings, he’ll get someone to make a pot of the best coffee money can buy, and he’ll take a mug outside and think. It doesn’t take a lot of thinking to make the odd feeling go away. Usually just a half a mug and a couple thoughts about what the bastard did to his wife.
4. He doesn’t have time for a relationship, nor does he want one. But Daniel’s favorite ways of relaxing involve sex. He likes sex. He could probably devote an entire lifetime to sex alone. He frequently hires a woman who looks strikingly like Carter. She’ll come over after Daniel’s had a magnificent dinner, and a long, hot shower. Every time his staff sends her up, she enters the bedroom to find him lounging on the bed in his robe. He knows he looks bored, and haughty, and lying amongst all the expensive pillows and paintings and richly carved wood he probably looks like a lazy god. He pretends she’s actually Carter (the Carter who didn’t believe him; the Carter who went crazy with jealousy and anger at Daniel because she just couldn’t understand) and he amuses himself doing humiliating things to her.
5. Daniel hasn’t talked to Jack in a long time. He sorta misses Jack. But then he remembers how Jack probably thinks he’s better than Daniel. How he greeted Skaara first when he returned to Abydos. How he didn’t even think about what staying behind on Argos would do to Daniel. How he never really comforted him after Hathor raped him; how he just stood there in that dammed padded cell!
Daniel shouldn’t want him, but he still does. And it hurts. Daniel always comforts himself with the thought that if only Jack could see him now! And later, when his plan comes to fruition. And if he could see him after that, when he moves beyond this sad small world and on to better things than this.... If Jack could see, then he’d never treat Daniel with anything but honor. He’d get on his knees before Daniel, and beg for forgiveness, beg to be allowed to touch Daniel like he used to... beg to be allowed to do more.
That usually stops him from wanting Jack. Because he wants Jack as an equal, not as the inferior that everyone else in his life rightfully is. But sometimes the ache in his chest doesn’t stop. It gnaws at him for days while he tries desperately to ignore it, even though when it gets like this, he knows is never able to keep pretending that he doesn’t really love Jack. And so, because he can’t love someone and want to use them at the same time, he finally ends the ache by jerking off to the mental image of Jack. Jack on his knees, humbled into submission... meekly accepting Daniel’s relentless pounding into his mouth and then, suddenly, his pulling back and coming all over Jack’s face.
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Date: 2009-08-30 11:49 pm (UTC)2. Daniel has a list. It’s a long, long list. It’s titled “Reasons Why Humanity is Thoroughly Screwed Up and Deserves What’s Coming”. People are so, so stupid, and unfortunately they are often stupid while being in close proximity to Daniel. He greatly enjoys adding to that list, and it reminds him of the inevitability of stupidity, and thus the pointlessness of getting as worked up about it as he does.
3. Every once in a while, Daniel hears someone say “indeed”. It usually gives him a bit of a weird, twisting feeling in his gut. Those evenings, he’ll get someone to make a pot of the best coffee money can buy, and he’ll take a mug outside and think. It doesn’t take a lot of thinking to make the odd feeling go away. Usually just a half a mug and a couple thoughts about what the bastard did to his wife.
4. He doesn’t have time for a relationship, nor does he want one. But Daniel’s favorite ways of relaxing involve sex. He likes sex. He could probably devote an entire lifetime to sex alone. He frequently hires a woman who looks strikingly like Carter. She’ll come over after Daniel’s had a magnificent dinner, and a long, hot shower. Every time his staff sends her up, she enters the bedroom to find him lounging on the bed in his robe. He knows he looks bored, and haughty, and lying amongst all the expensive pillows and paintings and richly carved wood he probably looks like a lazy god. He pretends she’s actually Carter (the Carter who didn’t believe him; the Carter who went crazy with jealousy and anger at Daniel because she just couldn’t understand) and he amuses himself doing humiliating things to her.
5. Daniel hasn’t talked to Jack in a long time. He sorta misses Jack. But then he remembers how Jack probably thinks he’s better than Daniel. How he greeted Skaara first when he returned to Abydos. How he didn’t even think about what staying behind on Argos would do to Daniel. How he never really comforted him after Hathor raped him; how he just stood there in that dammed padded cell!
Daniel shouldn’t want him, but he still does. And it hurts. Daniel always comforts himself with the thought that if only Jack could see him now! And later, when his plan comes to fruition. And if he could see him after that, when he moves beyond this sad small world and on to better things than this.... If Jack could see, then he’d never treat Daniel with anything but honor. He’d get on his knees before Daniel, and beg for forgiveness, beg to be allowed to touch Daniel like he used to... beg to be allowed to do more.
That usually stops him from wanting Jack. Because he wants Jack as an equal, not as the inferior that everyone else in his life rightfully is. But sometimes the ache in his chest doesn’t stop. It gnaws at him for days while he tries desperately to ignore it, even though when it gets like this, he knows is never able to keep pretending that he doesn’t really love Jack. And so, because he can’t love someone and want to use them at the same time, he finally ends the ache by jerking off to the mental image of Jack. Jack on his knees, humbled into submission... meekly accepting Daniel’s relentless pounding into his mouth and then, suddenly, his pulling back and coming all over Jack’s face.