1) In the beginning, she was intimidated by the city. It was the place of the Gods and she was not worthy to walk its halls. It made her want to run back to the familiar safety of her humble village.
2) Dr. McKay was so very mean sometimes it made her angry. He was impossible to deal with even on a limited level much less serving with him on a team. He made her want to throw up her hands in surrender and run away as far as she could get from him.
3) In all her years of trading for her people, she'd never met a group so distrustful as the people of Earth. They judged her without knowing her and withheld their trust even after she'd proven herself many times over. She felt like she would never break through their fears and she longed for the gentle camaraderie of her people.
4) She found out people had been speculating about her relationship with Col. Sheppard and it disgusted her. He was her leader, not her lover. It made her want to seek out her childhood friend with whom she shared more than her history.
5) After a time of feeling lost and lonely and thinking that perhaps she had sacrificed enough for her people, she sat in the cafeteria one day and looked around her and saw friends. The people who sat at the table with her had grown to be like family. They had faced death together and survived. They had fought Wraith and had won. If there was to be any future for her people, she needed to be here to represent them, to fight for them and to make a safe place for them to thrive. That was worth any sacrifice.
And if she could steal one of Dr. McKay's chocolate puddings off his tray while Sheppard was distracting him, well, that was just a perk.
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Four things that made Teyla decide to leave Atlantis (and the one thing that made her stay)
Date: 2009-03-01 07:55 am (UTC)2) Dr. McKay was so very mean sometimes it made her angry. He was impossible to deal with even on a limited level much less serving with him on a team. He made her want to throw up her hands in surrender and run away as far as she could get from him.
3) In all her years of trading for her people, she'd never met a group so distrustful as the people of Earth. They judged her without knowing her and withheld their trust even after she'd proven herself many times over. She felt like she would never break through their fears and she longed for the gentle camaraderie of her people.
4) She found out people had been speculating about her relationship with Col. Sheppard and it disgusted her. He was her leader, not her lover. It made her want to seek out her childhood friend with whom she shared more than her history.
5) After a time of feeling lost and lonely and thinking that perhaps she had sacrificed enough for her people, she sat in the cafeteria one day and looked around her and saw friends. The people who sat at the table with her had grown to be like family. They had faced death together and survived. They had fought Wraith and had won. If there was to be any future for her people, she needed to be here to represent them, to fight for them and to make a safe place for them to thrive. That was worth any sacrifice.
And if she could steal one of Dr. McKay's chocolate puddings off his tray while Sheppard was distracting him, well, that was just a perk.